I dont get it really,I always try my best and go out of my way to help people.But somehow, no one every seems to reciprocate,why am i so soft?


X smsed me on Friday,telling me that Y's birthday was next Sunday. i replied that it would be good that we could get a present for him on the following Sunday.However,On sunday when i smsed him to meet at 130, he calmly replied that he had work til 230. So replied,we could go after that,and decided to kill some time studying.but when it was past 230, X smsed me again saying "hey hillary,i cant go with you to buy a present because i just remembered i have a project to finish".

Great eh?thanks for wasting half my day,and not even an apology.I Set off after reading his message,in the pouring rain to go to orchard just to get the present for Y.When walking back in the rain,

it struck me.

why am i always going out my way,to make that person feel special?
why am i always doing my best,and going the extra mile for others,sometimes even for complete strangers?

when neither of them,ever did the same to me?


A,who was the one who responded to your call in the dead of the night,and traveled across the island despite having work the next day, just to give you a listening ear?

T,who was the one who gave you accounts tuition for your O levels, even though i was extremely tired after work,and came over to your place so you could get some rest after class?


But instead who helped me when i needed it the most?
No one.

When i fractured my hip and was confined to my home,who came to my aid?
X and Y did,but only because they had to get together to attend training later.

Who gave me a listening ear or offered me guidance,when i had problems?
No one.


Know why i wanted to pick up the classical guitar and why i loved it so much and devoted so much time to it?

I wanted to drown out the silence and the loneliness,that were always hovering around me.











im such a fool.
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HNNNNNNNG.


after a week of intense testing my exams have finally finished.hopefully the effort i put in will produce results.

Financial accounting wasnt that bad,considering some of the topics spotted came out,but i was rather intimidated by the auntie next to me,who pressed the calculator so hard the table shook.Good thing you dont need to use much of it during financial accounting.


Cost accounting,to cut it short,was a bloody killer.


The ones above were the major topics,which i spent most of my time on.but when i flipped through the exam booklet,guess what? process costing,which i studied like crazy for and which was the most difficult,tedious and brainmelting topic didnt come out,which made me feel extremely horrible.all the questions were so horrendously difficult,even the seemingly harmless and easy cash budget,took me an hour(and loads of thinking) to do.And to top it all off,i sat beside the very same auntie.After like half an hour of ferocious calculator pressing(you need to the calculator alot during cost accounting),i decide to press my calculator as loud as i could so i could distract her.she however,seemingly unamused by my sudden vigor gave me a "whats your problem dumbass!" look and returned to her work unfazed.after ten minutes of pressing,i gave up and decided to concentrate on my paper.

My last paper,management accounting was rather doable.Most of the topics i studied for came out,and they werent as difficult as costing and financial.

Now after all my exams are over,i am looking forward to a week of R and R,and hopefully if my injured hip permits it,practice the guitar as well.
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Well,after an hour of editing the template i finally got my blog up and running.first and foremost,i will be using this blog to write about my daily life , or any eventful events that happened in the course of it.Unlike my previous blog,do not expect any emo rants here,as i will be concentrating on the more positive side of things,rather then the other,and focusing more on the things that really do matter.


And now on a lighter note,
for most of you who dont know,i fractured my hip about three weeks ago and spent a week of it in the hospital.Fortunately,it was only a hairline fracture but nevertheless,the pain was still rather excruciating.but as weird as it seems,it came at a rather good time though(it seems as though God is on my side on this),i am using this opportunity to catch up with my studies at the comfort of my own home,without having to worry about stuff at camp. Hopefully,ill do well in this course and do the people who have faith in me proud.
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